Its been a long while since I posted last time, I think now its time to break the silence. I have to address this in some manner, its long overdue. Things have gone on high gear since I posted my Realizations thread... I've gone through life changing events, mental changes, body changes and I'm only in the beginning. I've gone from admitting my feminine side to exploring it and finally acting upon it and I think I'm finding my place in life.
You read me right, I'm coming out to you all, let the closet doors fall of their hinges, I can't keep this inside me anymore. I know I'm sort of 'non-binary gender fluid' person, but the rabbit hole has gone much deeper than I ever thought. Starting to do herbal based hrt, DIY way was the thing that opened the Pandora's box for me, its like a tide which is impossible to control...
I'm fast becoming an male to female trans, (By the gods how I hate these titles!) likely will end up living as a woman full time at some point. My body has been completely re written by changing my hormone balance, mostly in a very pleasant way. Experimenting with these things I already started nearly two years ago, being on my herbal regimen for ten months now and I'm a different person, my body isn't the same any more. Its as if ten years of age have disappeared from my face, my hips are so much wider, I've gone from flat to D cup and I got to say I love my breasts so much... I'm overall softer and rounder than ever, very feminine and I love it.
Looking back, I should have seen this coming a long time ago, the signs were all there, blatantly obvious and I finally realized I can actually do something about it and not just shrug it all off as a daydream. Luckily for me, I do not hate my body and what ever dysphoria I have, is mostly not that bad at all, its more like finding a more pleasurable existence which better reflects on who I am on a fundamental level. Luckily Finnish language doesn't have gendered pronouns so I haven't had the need to think about it, but if you want to be very kind to me, I would love to be preferred as a she from now on. Don't worry, I wont get mad if anyone misgenders me, I'm not stiff upper lip about it. How could I, as I have both sides to my personality anyway. But if you want to melt my heart, refer me as a woman from now on.
I even came up with a female name, heck, I might use it as my craft name also. Its ironic, my bullies used to call me that when I was kid as I was teased for "being a girl" as I had long hair and totally looked (and acted!) like one of the girls back then. Its really close to my given name btw, which is funny as heck, anyone who calls me with it, is using a nickname for my female name now.
I'll add few pictures here, no makeup or anything, just being me. <3So please to meet you all, my name Larissa. May Kuutar shine upon your path.
Perhaps you can perform a ritual of passing to your friends past and welcome in HIS new existence? Just to give yourself peace of mind about it? Oh and talk with him about it. 
Not that the road hasn't been rocky, but I would say that the good things surpass the bad ten to zero. 
