Everything I Do Backfires. :(

[Falcon_Heart27]

Hello everyone.

So here's the problem. Everything I do BACKFIRES. I had a short while (earlier in the year, spring/early summer) of really good results to my spells (not to mention coming in contact with deities and spirits, and some great tarot results).

Now, I can't manage any of it. My spells are weak and sometimes they do more harm than good. I have trouble focusing, and can't meditate worth a darn. My tarot spreads are muddled and make no sense to me. I haven't been able to come in contact with any of the household spirits which upsets me, because we were actually BONDING through repetitive visits. I've opened my home to them, made it clear that they're still welcome, but nothing.

Also, I thought earlier in the year that I might have been reached out to by the Goddess Freya. I make offerings to her and try to speak with her, but nothing comes of it. I've even felt sicker and more run down after trying to reach any deities.

When I lay in bed at night, I try to focus my intent on having prophetic dreams, and sometimes sending messages. Lately, I've just been trying to achieve a more restful sleep. But no matter what I do, I end up tossing and turning all night. One time, I asked for guidance in my dreams ("show me what I need to see", etc.) and all I got was terrible vivid nightmares that I couldn't recall upon waking. Just the physical pain of such great fear.


Does anyone know what's happening to me? Why I can't seem to do anything right? This has been happening for a few months, and it's really starting to bring me down. It's like a big piece of my life has been taken from me, and it's leaving me exhausted and moody.
Does anyone know how to restore my former power/cure this blockage?

I would really, really appreciate any help, answers, or even just comments that you could give.

Thanks,
~Falcon

[AdastraJunction]

Everyone eventually hits a block. I would take a step back, stop trying so hard to regain what you once had. Sometimes just stopping, watching and waiting does a world of good, get a new perspective and try not to do too much at once. Get back to the basics and try simpler things. Possibly try to identify the cause, when did these things start to go wrong? What were you doing/not doing? What was happening in your life at the time outside of your practices? Have you brought any new items into your usual routine? SImple questions like these may lead to the answers you seek and help you to identify what has changed or are in need of change.

[Joachim]

Im new here, but there is a saying that might help you "your job is not to become love, but to eradicate all the barriers between love and yourself" hope it helps