Starting over on magical abilities

[Amwitch69]

I am in need of help over the last few years my abilities have been going haywire. I feel like I may of lost touch with my magical self and as well as my psychic self. How does one restore these abilities and become successful on spells again? If you need me to give a long story on what may of happened I will. Please help guide me back to my former self again, I am feeling lost.

[Becks]

Hi there Amwitch. Welcome. You sound like you have hit a rough spot. I know the mods will kindly ask you to please introduce yourself first. Take a moment and tell us a bit about yourself....interests, magical path etc. That helps folks to get a better feel for you and with a bit of information people can get a better sense.

This is a great place and people are very kind. There's a ton of great information already existing in the threads. Have a look through. Hope to see you around.

[Amwitch69]

Well I am not wiccan but I am just solitary witch more of the pagan side. I am from Las Vegas NV, born and raised I spent over a year in Baton Rouge LA with my ex. Whom I had a lot of trouble with he was more into dark arts and I think from time to time may of cursed me because I left him. I thought I was in love with someone who I wanted back in my life but didn't want me back in his, so I feel as though the stress of that strains my relationship now with my child's father and myself. We went through some hell this year and last year as well. Trust issues on my side seems to be the trouble of why we have a fractured connection with each other. Also thinking this has fractured my abilities to do magical things, like cast spells, my psychic abilities tapped out or feeling like I don't have them totally anymore. Or if that is ever possible. I've felt like more negative keeps tapping into my head. And, more realistic thoughts keep effecting my mind and how I make decisions. I am afraid of at times to be positive because, I've had doors thrown up on me right and left before. Unknown why that happens or if its me starting to think negative again. I am Cancer 3rd decan if you understand astrology. I am a Moon Pisces makes me prone to more psychic absorbing energies. I am a mother of 1 her name is Freya Rose. Her father and I knew each other in middle school and reconnected back in 2013. And, I feel as though at times wondering if negativity has a big part of our relationship issues. I don't know where to start back on the right path. I am a very loving person but, have been hurt in the past by others and its made me close up quite a bit.

[Becks]

It's really nice to meet you.

It sounds like you have through "the ringer" as they say, and perhaps you have depleted your personal energy stores?
I don't know about you, but I find it really tough to practice when I am depleted and not at all well grounded. My gut is telling me that maybe you need to take some time for self-care, shielding and grounding? Just the simple stuff. Take a walk with your daughter in nature. Connect with the plants and trees, walk barefoot (I know it's fall and chilly) touch the earth and leaves. Let that magic work on you....that, with self care and shielding helps me. Remember why you love the path you are on. Come to it again gently.

[Seraphin]

Hi there Amwitch. Welcome. You sound like you have hit a rough spot. I know the mods will kindly ask you to please introduce yourself first. Take a moment and tell us a bit about yourself....interests, magical path etc. That helps folks to get a better feel for you and with a bit of information people can get a better sense...

This made me laugh Becks, do we sound like a scratch?

As for your question Amwitch, yes, based on the story you've shared with us, I also think this trust issues on your side troubled and fractured your magickal, psychic and even social abilities.

I believe what you have to do is gain that trust back. Trust yourself again and learn to trust others as well. What causes you to trust someone? If you know that someone has cared for you from the moment they met you, has tried to provide you with your demands and needs as best they could, you learn to trust them, yes?

Appreciation

When our spells work or our intuitive ability is attainable from time to time inconsistently, it's natural for us to recognize it and appreciate it. But when they work so often and consistently, we start taking it for granted. And when that happens, we stop appreciating. And when we stop appreciating, it is as if we never received anything from our inner selves who actually did the work for us. It is as if, nothing occurred.

The thing we can see about this appreciation is that it causes and triggers more giving on the part of the giver, and therefore more blessing for the recipient. I believe our inner Self, the spirits and forces around us that aids us in our magickal or psychic work is like this as well. If we go for many days or months without appreciating, noticing or even thanking them for what we have experienced, they somehow pulls back and gives us a lack so that we can learn to appreciate the things in our world.

That being said, I would suggest you to do some "appreciation or thanksgiving spell" if you are open to spell-weaving. Spells for appreciation, acknowledgement or expressing gratitude are best cast preferably on Mondays during Pisces when the moon is waxing or full. Wearing white clothes reinforces the expression of thanks being offered.

You could incorporate to your spell any white or silver items (candles, flowers, coins and crystals like snow quartz, pearl or an opal) and a bowl of fruits. Light the white or silver candle and as it burns meditate on it. Give silent thanks
for your magickal and psychic ability you always have and have once utilized.

Build a History of the Spiritual Relationship

I don't know what is your stance about Deities, guides, helpers and spirits but if you were to take the time to think about it everything they did for you and you genuinely appreciate it, you would be bathed with a general sense of trust and happiness. You'd realize how much your spirit community protects and guides you.

Our relationship with our spirit community works in much the same way how human relationship work. We need to ensure that our relationship is built on a strong foundation of trust that comes through appreciating all the good They have done for us. That builds the history of the relationship.

So start by writing down the things in your journal that you believe and trust you will receive from them. Place your journal in your altar or shrine you made for Them. Give some offerings or libations to reconnect to all the good that They have done for you and feeling Them will largely determine how you interpret challenges and difficult situations.

The greater the appreciation we have, the greater that knowledge will seep into our consciousness and make us more trustful and more connected to the spirit's realm.

Commune

Once you can see clearly realize how much powerful your inner Self is, you have to maintain the relationship with the the spirits and newly found trust by communicating. Communication is the foundation of any strong relationship. When you talk to anyone (parents, spouse, children, friends, colleagues, employees), you strengthen the bonds between you.

This is equally important when it comes to magickal and spiritual work. Meditate, center and ground yourself always. These procedures usually brings the magick within us.

I would also suggest a ritual bath for this to gain back or restore the magick that has lost. You could place some purple candles around the bath tub, then run a warm (not hot) bath, and drizzle some of the lavender oil into the water. Float some oak or basil leaves too in the bath or any leaves or flowers that symbolizes the magick within you and climb in.

And you could make some breathing techniques here and some visualization where you would breath in the air of magick and breathe out the distrust you are feeling. You could also make a talisman or charm out of the leaves by putting them in a bag or sachet. Before doing some magickal work or when you feel depleted like this time again just hold the bag while meditating for a few moments.

[Becks]

That's a lovely post Seraphin with lots of great suggestions.