Exercise gone wrong? Or maybe better than intended?

[Tiddlyfisher]

Hey all. I just recently attempted an energy exercise but it didn't work as was instructed.
The idea is to visualize a ball of white light in between your hands and pull your hands apart to turn it to a beam, hold it as long as you can, then put them back together to pull the energy back into your palms. I made an entry into my book of Shadows that I'll paste here.

Jan 11 2015
Today was a huge leap. I made my introduction on everythingunderthemoon and found quite a few resources. I also gained more knowledge on the history of the craft.
When attempting an exercise to imagine white energy in between my hands like a ball, I really struggled, but two times I began to feel the warmth and could see it. At least I am pretty sure I could see it. It looked like small gray particles, I wouldn't really call it white at all.
The first time I felt the warmth I could only briefly see the particles. After a few minutes of resting I tried again and interesting things occurred.
I went into my room where I lit a white candle which I attempted to charge with the intent to help me focus. Then I gazed between my hands like before, however this time I let my eyes go slack, as I call it. When I did that, my hands blurred together, seemed to become paler, and they gained a white outline. Immediately I felt the warmth between my hands and could see the particles, however I could also see other things. I first saw ice skates skating in the space where I was supposed to imagine the light, then the space became one color and turned into a brown reptilian creature, I'm assuming just a lizard. Though, it was rather thick, more like a small dragon or something. It went away and I tried to focus it into a white ball, but then I saw purple dots that were larger than the gray particles but there were only ten dots. The dots started in a sideways S shape, then straightened in a flat line, still in their dot form, and were connecting my hands. They went away and another dragon like creature came back, like the first, but this one was darker and it had its mouth open with its tongue hanging out.
I dismissed it and tried to focus on the white ball but it got me nowhere. I gave up, as I had been going at it for a while at that point, and I grounded myself. After grounding myself I had a slight headache.

Now, I of course know of divination and scrying. I'm not sure if I accidentally tapped into that or if this is something else. Honestly I was hoping this would be straightforward and I wouldn't have anything strange happen, but I suppose I should be happy that something happened, despite it not being the intended outcome.

Any insight on what happened would be wonderful, as well as tips to properly do this exercise.

[Seraphin]

I'm a firm believer that nothing in an energetic or meditative exercise appear by accident. If you perceive something, see signs or just sense strange or unusual stuffs, your first reaction should be: "What's going on? Why am I seeing this? Is there someone trying to get my attention?"

If we're serious about any meditative or energetic exercise we're doing, then we understand that everything that's happening in our mind or consciousness during sessions is always interacting with us.

Seeing visions and discerning what it meant in energy work is one of the most natural human experiences, and can also be one of the most important ones as well. Like every "psychic art," there's a certain amount of honing that's required before the "natural talent" can become the basis for a guidance or inspiration.

To understand the vision, ask yourself:

• "What do the objects I saw mean to me?" and answer the question.
• "Did I feel anything when the objects appeared? Recall your thoughts and emotions."
• "How does such an idea benefit my life in general?"
• Write a short essay "justifying" your thoughts and emotions. If necessary, find resources (books, articles, and such) on meanings of signs, and do research.

If you do this, the next time you perceive something again in your energy work, you'll immediately connect to them, and you'll understand them. You'll begin to feel visionary and clairvoyant, and this will enhance your entire energy work experience. Make a journal just to remind yourself the conclusions you reached through this type of analysis.

You could do this for every individual visions in meditation, consciousness work and energetic exercise, and spend the rest of your leisure times doing nothing but this. However, very few people take effort and time on such a project. Nevertheless, it has been my experience, performing the steps above at least a couple of times, makes me somewhat automatic, deciphering the messages of my visions, until the entire energy work itself becomes a way to communicate with the spirit or Divine wold or to receive suggested guidance, support and inspiration for the day.

Hope this helps!

[Tiddlyfisher]

Thank you very much Seraphin! I was beginning to worry no one would offer me assistance.

I am aware that lizards and dragons are animals of the God, and that He is born again on Yule, which is in winter, which resonates with me when thinking of the ice skates because it is also very child-like to play on ice skates. It's also worth noting that the second lizard/dragon seemed playful with its open mouth and slack tongue. However, that doesn't particularly tell me anything, except that it has something to do with the young God, maybe? I have no idea whatsoever what the purple dots mean. Not even an emotion to go along with it.

I hope it will come to me, though I can't say I will be too bothered if it doesn't. I am perfectly okay with not always being successful in my endeavors.

[MsMollimizz]

I hope it will come to me, though I can't say I will be too bothered if it doesn't. I am perfectly okay with not always being successful in my endeavors.

This statement, dear Lady, if you turely mean this I believe
you will go far in your practice as long as you keep this in
your heart.
I have a question: When you started doing this, did you rub your hands
together before you started pulling them apart ?
Did you feel a pulling if you didn't rub them ?
Lizard/Dragon may be one of your spirit guides !
I would think that to be so since "it" showed up twice !
You may want to look into reading some of Ted Andrews
spirit guide type books(titles not coming to me !), and
maybe Animal Speak...etc. do a search at Amazon.com
for Ted's books you'll probably like quite a few of them !
Gentle Light
MsMollimizz

[Tiddlyfisher]

Thank you! Both for the helpful reply and kind words.
I didn't rub my hands together and I can't say if I did or didn't feel a pulling. I remember my hands feeling very firm and rigid, though.
I'm looking up this Ted Andrews person immediately. I'll also look into how to contact my spirit guides. I actually have looked into it once before, but I hadn't expected to be seeking them out or to be contacted by them for months, and didn't bother to go very far.

[Seraphin]

Alright, as I'm one of those people who works with dragons here, I guess I should reply to you again. As Ms.Mollimiz said, the dragon may be one of your spirit guide. Now, how do you know if the dragon or lizard is really your guide?

That I can't tell . But YOU can tell by asking them mentally.

How do you know if they are real and not a product of your imagination?

To know if the answers come from your guides or not, consider the following: In my experience, like any other spirit guides, dragons will be concerned more with guiding you in your soul evolution, healing, providing ancient wisdom, or in raising the level of your spiritual knowledge, rather than answering purely mundane questions or yes or no questions. Such type of questions do not usually concern dragons.

Dragons in my experience, give a long answer about the nature of the spirit world or any sort of ancient wisdom and art. They may reply through automatic writing, through meditation or through telepathy or mental communication. Some dragons can be talkative, others more quiet and enigmatic. Usually they don't spoon-feed people but help them learn themselves.

Also consider that sometimes the big powerful dragons, serpents or lizards are actually Deities, not average members of the species. Many deities of the Middle and Near East present as dragons -- Tiamet, Liwyathan (Leviathan), Rahav, etc.

[Tiddlyfisher]

Sorry for the late response! I always feel guilty responding late since none of you have to do this, you are offering help because you like to.

I haven't taken a step toward this since my last reply, but I will be spending a good bit of my time on it. The idea I have is that by connecting with my guides, I will be able to more effectively grow. Feel free to correct me if that isn't the best approach, however it feels right to me.

I'm not entirely sure how I would go about reaching out to them exactly (Don't worry MsMollimizz, I will still be looking into those books, but they aren't at my local library and I have no money to spend just yet), since my meditation sessions never seem to go well (except for one last night! Definitely felt like I was getting somewhere) and I doubt scrying, automatic writing, or dreaming will be very effective, considering I do not know how to effectively do them. I rarely ever even dream, it's typically just darkness for what feels like five or ten seconds, and then I wake up. I've also never scried or automatically written to my knowledge.

I'm sure I will eventually "link up" with them over time through putting out my intentions into the universe and slowly becoming more in tune with my spirituality, however, here is hoping it is sooner rather than later. Not that I am impatient, but I can't say having to wait is fun.

[Seraphin]

I'm not entirely sure how I would go about reaching out to them exactly (Don't worry MsMollimizz, I will still be looking into those books, but they aren't at my local library and I have no money to spend just yet), since my meditation sessions never seem to go well (except for one last night! Definitely felt like I was getting somewhere) and I doubt scrying, automatic writing, or dreaming will be very effective, considering I do not know how to effectively do them. I rarely ever even dream, it's typically just darkness for what feels like five or ten seconds, and then I wake up. I've also never scried or automatically written to my knowledge.

Hiya Tiddyfisher!

If you haven't got much success in meditation and lucid dreaming then perhaps dedicating a day to your guides would work to reach them out! This is what I sometimes do when it seems that my spiritual community don't interact with me in my meditations.

Start from the time the sun sets, until after the dedication is made, you should not eat or drink anything.

The procedure is as follows:

The table should be set with offerings (fresh flowers, herbs and spices, incenses, fruits and foods) on the table.

Take a wine or juice and fill a goblet to the rim (our joy should be "full").

Light two candles.

Recite some blessings and/or utter a message of dedicating that day for your spirit guides.

When the blessings, dedications and thanksgiving are complete, you may now drink and eat and invite your guides to partake.

This little ritual has the ability to separate between the spiritual and the mundane. By doing this, you take a day for reflection and meditation. Everything that you will see, read, feel and experience in the next morning (whether in work, school, etc.) will be a message of your spiritual community not just an ordinary mundane occurrence. So you have to "listen" –- and implies a deeper level listening -– focusing, paying attention, and understanding is extremely significant. Zero in on just what is being talked, addressed or said (oral or written) and let the message penetrate your thoughts.

Now once you have heard or seen something that grabs your attention, get into a defining mode. Acquire the habit of analyzing what you see, hear and experience. Anything worth your time –- reading the newspaper or a magazine, hearing or having a conversation, watching a T.V. program, advertisement, film or theater, travelling -– should always have a message. Always seek what your guides might be saying. What do they want you to know?

Then afterwards, articulate what you realized and reflected. If you don't, you'll wind up living with chaos or confusion. Proper articulation are especially important when you're learning about the signs and messages from spirit community. As we dedicated this day to our spirit guides and we let our consciousness to tune into them, the deepest concepts are contained within our daily activities, often encoded in simpler messages. Every actions and words is carefully listened and deciphered.

There's a crucial final step as well. Always ask yourself as the day ended: "Now that I hear and understand what my guides want to tell to me, what am I going to do about it?"

[Tiddlyfisher]

Thanks so much Seraphin! I will definitely have to give this a go, assuming I get this job, I'll have the resources within a week or two.

Though, it likely won't be possible for months, since I would need time alone where I wouldn't be disturbed, which is definitely NOT something I can get in my current living situation.

Which is too bad.

I do have some good news though; last night I had a deep meditation session for the first time. At least, it was deep to me. And during it I believe I had contact with spirits that could be my guides. I'll be making a full thread for it in the spirit guides section if you are interested in checking it out. I saw a dragon again.

[Seraphin]

That's great to hear! Keep us posted in your progress!