Help me understand plz

[BabyBear]

I have this dream and its always the same well mostly

In it Im standing on this clear glass like platform, kinda like a frosted glass chess board. Its suspended in the space with stars as far as the eyes can see and under me and everything there is no moon no sun no planets at all, and on the platform in front of me is these young women in a white robe and she seems to glow like the moon light and i keep wonting to call her Twilight Princess idk y just thats whats her name is, and on either side of her are these two guards both male and like Greek or roman looking armor of gold and white, and she talks to me on and on all night about things i need to know but i never remember when i wake up. (yet i tend to be able to do whats called knowledge speak which is where i just speak out facts about people or information without thinking and then find out they are 100% true)

Some times in the dream I have a giant white wolf beside me i think this is my spirit animal cus i get this image when i see him of me as a baby cuddled up with him as a puppy sleeping and of me being little playing and chasing him around, and others im with this big black and red dragon who seems old and wise and again i feel like hes protecting and guiding me.

Idk what to make of this really i dont but ik i need to figure it out for some reason it seems very important especially with how often i have this dream and how i get the feeling that the knowledge she is teaching me is something i need to remember.
and i think it should also be said that i use to see spirits and gods all the time but i kinda shut down that ability around my teens cus of my mom and other things and although i can see them some what now its harder.

[Starwitch]

I believe the people teaching you are your spirit guides. I've heard that all of us go to spirit school at night while our brain is processing memories and whatnot. The fact that you can remember visiting with them is unusual and could denote that you have an advanced spiritual level. It's probably not terribly important that you consciously recall the things they tell you. It's information for your spirit, not for your brain. Your spirit remembers, even if you can't consciously bring up the memory. It also could be that they have these meetings with you when you're about to reach an important point in your life. Perhaps in a past life you've taken a wrong turn, so they are encouraging and reminding you of what your soul had planned for this life so that you'll hopefully do the right thing this time around and not have to repeat the same lesson again in a future life.

If you ever become suicidal in this life, please read my husband's account and remind yourself of the meetings with your guides and how they are trying to steer you in the right direction. The right thing is always to keep pushing through and to find a way to deal with the bad things that happen to you. Bad things (even really bad things) happen to everyone. It's part of our spiritual learning here on Earth.

I don't guess you're actually suicidal, but I felt the need to mention that to you, so try to keep it in mind if you ever get depressed and start feeling hopeless. Depression seems to be somewhat common among people who are drawn to the Craft.

Bright blessings,
Starwitch

[BabyBear]

Thanks and no im not suicidal although i have been depressed off an on in my life but thats understandable with the situations ive been through but im to much of a chicken to kill myself as i always say lol ik ive got stuff to do before im done in this world why end it before i do it is what i also say lol

as for the advanced spiritual level i have to agree but like i said ive locked that part of me up for so long its getting hard to even try and recall on it or use it

[Starwitch]

You may just need to practice meditation and energy work to get things opened up and working for you. It sounds like you're still young, so you have plenty of time to figure out your life's purpose and get to work on it. Very few people have it figured it out at age 20, and most don't even start to think about spirituality until they're much older, closer to 50. You're like me, already asking questions at a young age. You'll be surprised how much you can learn and become capable of in just a few short years of studying and practicing spirituality. You could easily be a healer or shaman or something along those lines by the time you're 30.

What will also help is to write down the bad things that have happened to you. It really helps a lot to take those memories and put them on paper. It helps move that energy around and get a lot of it out of your mind and body. Whenever you feel bad memories and feelings starting to build up inside you, take the time to type it all out. I can't count the number of times I've typed out my bad memories. I even went so far as to write down my memories from the abuser's point of view, as opposed to my own point of view. I just made it up, what he was thinking and feeling, how he felt about me, etc. I also write letters to the people who hurt me. I just never sent them. You could keep your writings in a private blog if you don't want to keep an actual diary.

After you've released a lot of your emotional baggage, you'll be more able to focus on spirituality and developing magical, healing, or psychic abilities. It sounds like you could end up doing what I do, which is to help other people on their own spiritual path, while also offering advice and empathy for their past and current emotional wounds that are holding them back. There are a lot of hurting people in the world. We can never have too many "Agony Aunts", healers, shamans, and spiritual advisers.

Bright blessings,
Starwitch

[BabyBear]

its funny you would menchin healing actually lol

ive thought about doing that before i find i have a knack for healing orbs, thats what i call it, ill rub my hands together till they are hot then place my hands on the persons hurt areas like if its the knee i would place one on the front one on the back, and then i imagine this orb of light just flowing from one hand to the other and then through me again and again till i feel the problems gone and it seems to work or i guess it dose idk they could have been lieing to me. ive done it once or twice to help someone with mental problems and to help relive pain in bones and joints and they said it worked, i also tend to have an empathy for someones else's pain, if i live with them for awhile or know them alot ill like atm i live with my grama and shes got arthritides and a worse back then me and i find here lately that my joints are hurting and my back hurts more then it usually dose, same use to happen with my mom she would hurt herself some way and i would feel it to for some reason.

[BabyBear]

my main problem is i always doubt my abilities and what i do, its been drilled into me for so long that im not good at anything but being smart that ive got this whole fear of failing or not doing something right or that im just making it up or something like that

[Holdasown]

I keep a book by my bed as a journal for dreams. I can't remember mine either so I write what I can usually only a word or two. It's very helpful if you think it might work for you.

[Starwitch]

It sounds like you do know how to heal and that it probably comes naturally to you. Your technique is a good one - the standard white light healing technique. It's what I use too.

The more you practice healing, the more confident you'll feel about your abilities. We all have the same doubts about our abilities, whatever abilities they might be. Everyone, at some point, asks themselves whether they are making it all up. You'll obviously feel more confident if you can find a way to distance yourself from people who drag you down and, instead, surround yourself with people who support you in your healing work and spiritual growth. Some people can only find that kind of support online.

I keep a book by my bed as a journal for dreams. I can't remember mine either so I write what I can usually only a word or two. It's very helpful if you think it might work for you.

Yeah, writing dreams down as soon as you wake up, before you get out of bed, is the best way to remember them. Even better is if you can just use a voice recorder. The more you start to move and look around, the more you forget your dreams. You want to stay as close to sleep as possible so your brain doesn't start waking up and filling with thoughts of the new day ahead. Also, waking yourself up in the middle of a sleep cycle is a good way to remember dreams. You'd have to set an alarm for that - something not too jarring though. You want the alarm to creep into your dream and become a part of it, and then you'll say to yourself, "Self? I must be dreaming because that's my alarm going off." Then, of course, you'll jump into the air like Superman, arms stretched out in front of your body, and start flying through the sky! woohoo!

[BabyBear]

lol thanks for the help starwitch, and if you find anything on white light plz send it my way it is something i wish to explore

as for the dream journal and everything ik about them and everything i just never keep one >< especially since im ocd and i would like to see someone else's set up of a dream journal before making my own

[Starwitch]

This site should be helpful. Not only can you read other people's dream journal entries, but you can create your own dream journal there as well.

http://www.dreamjournal.net/

And here are some helpful instructions on using light energy in healing. In fact, it appears they have lessons starting with level one and moving up, so check out the links at the top. The link below is apparently level two healing.

http://www.chioshealing.com/HealingLeve ... glight.htm

[BabyBear]

for everyone who tryed thier best to help i thank you

the goddess was Artemis and I think the males companions in armor were HIPPOLYTOS and ORION
She was called Princess Twilight because she is daughter of Zeus and Goddess of Twilight *giggles*

as for my wolf its my spirit guide/ companion i do belive but that part has thrown me for a loop most of Artemises followers or children that she protects are given a companion of hers and they have the ability to change into wolf yet that would mean they are female and to me my wolf is male

oh and i thought i would share this pic of what she pretty much looks like in my dreams because i thought it was a beautiful dream keep in mind her robes were diffrent in the front but still had that kinda scroll design so i thought it was close enough lol


blessed be

[Nightwatcher]

Artemis did have some male Hunters that, while not part of her nymphs, she did protect and patron. He may be one of those spirits.

[BabyBear]

i didnt know that, ive been looking alot up trying to find male hunters or companions of hers and i cant come up with anything its anoying
especially with all the Virgin Goddess misconceptions that most of the sites i find talk about how she hates men or keeps away from them and stuff like that which is so not true

[Nightwatcher]

i didnt know that, ive been looking alot up trying to find male hunters or companions of hers and i cant come up with anything its anoying
especially with all the Virgin Goddess misconceptions that most of the sites i find talk about how she hates men or keeps away from them and stuff like that which is so not true

Some of her male followers are actually in her myths, funnily enough. I will happily re-check my sources to give you specific names beyond only Orion.

[BabyBear]

i would love that actually lol if you could pm me the links and stuff i would appreciate it