All muddied up?
Posted: Thu Feb 26, 2015 1:20 pm
This is the best way I can put it—and I’ll try to make this as “rambling”-free as possible. ( I also hope this was the right forum for this). But let me give you some background first. I was raised Protestant Christian-ish. When I was a child I did some things like astral projection, shielding, and such without even really thinking about it and I’ve been doing “kitchen witchery” for a lot of years without realizing that’s what I was doing. Over the last few years I fell out of practice with it though and didn’t really think about it.
Then I had a sort of crisis of faith and struggled with the Christian God and some of the principles of that religion. I felt like there was a divine but that the Christian God couldn’t be it (for me). So fast forward, recently I decided to embrace that feeling and I have been. Still nailing down what my exact path is, but the closest I have found is pantheist pagan. I am much more at peace with myself about it now. I’m not “out” to my family but that will come with time, as will getting back into a better harmony with nature and life.
So now my issue is this. Lately, in the last month or so I’ve noticed there’s some kind of negativity “muddying” up the clean air in my home and it’s messing with my family. (Not a spirit but a …force…or something like that). There’s snippy-ness and general lethargy and apathy. It’s affecting all of us—the dogs, the plants, the people. I’ve even found myself having to back up and say “Whoa, I’m sorry I said that just now.” I feel like it’s gradually been getting thicker over time, so that I can almost physically feel it. So I’m wondering if anyone can point me towards a good cleansing spell/ritual or something I can use to clear things out. I don’t do deities really but I could modify something and personalize it for our situation. Thank you for any help!
Then I had a sort of crisis of faith and struggled with the Christian God and some of the principles of that religion. I felt like there was a divine but that the Christian God couldn’t be it (for me). So fast forward, recently I decided to embrace that feeling and I have been. Still nailing down what my exact path is, but the closest I have found is pantheist pagan. I am much more at peace with myself about it now. I’m not “out” to my family but that will come with time, as will getting back into a better harmony with nature and life.
So now my issue is this. Lately, in the last month or so I’ve noticed there’s some kind of negativity “muddying” up the clean air in my home and it’s messing with my family. (Not a spirit but a …force…or something like that). There’s snippy-ness and general lethargy and apathy. It’s affecting all of us—the dogs, the plants, the people. I’ve even found myself having to back up and say “Whoa, I’m sorry I said that just now.” I feel like it’s gradually been getting thicker over time, so that I can almost physically feel it. So I’m wondering if anyone can point me towards a good cleansing spell/ritual or something I can use to clear things out. I don’t do deities really but I could modify something and personalize it for our situation. Thank you for any help!