Everything Under the Moon

Hello all,
So, I'm not a witch, I really wish I were, but at the moment I've only had one premonitory dream and I'm a beginner with stones.
I'm having some really bad issues motivating myself to study and letting go of the past following a depression. I'm still slightly depressed, and yes, I take medication for it.
To keep it short, I took some bad decisions which really seemed good at the time, and that triggered the depression, and now I'm afraid I'll fudge up again, so I'm afraid to study or actually to do anything lest I get depressed again.
I know this is twisted thinking. I need to let go of my past quickly before I screw up this year too.

Also, my father who has psychosis and is just a really negative man is giving off negative energy which I would like to shield myself from.

I bought a tiger's eye partly for that, but sadly I need the tiger's eye to sleep so it's now permanently in my bed under the covers, except when I purify it.

Anyway, I would be extremely grateful if someone could give me a spell, a ritual, a protection shield, anything that would help me with these issues. If it works even a little bit I'm sure it will help me a lot. I'm not hoping for miracles especially since I am a beginner.

Hello, Leanna! I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time, I understand the feeling!

First, though, I'm curious as to why you say you're not a witch because you've only had one premonition-like dream and have only worked with stones. Neither are mandatory things for being a witch. Everyone's definition of a witch is different and honestly I think that if you follow this path and practice magic (spells and so on) then that constitutes as being a witch.

Something easy for beginning work that you could do, is take an item that you don't use all the time or even a crystal, and hold it in your hands. Focus your worry and negative energy into it then lock it way until you need to do it again. I've done this and it helps!