Nightmare - I am worried!

[ness]

I have had many weird dreams and usually they are not scary. But, last night I had a nightmare that scared me to my bones. I am very worried. I need some insight and some advice on how I should take it.

I am even sort of scared to put it in words. But, here it is -

I have a 8 mon old daughter. She sleeps in her nursery.

In my dream, I am walking to her room and its sort of dark but dimly lit. I am in the hallway and I can see her crib. But I see that she is suspended flat in the air, well above her crib. She is wearing the little dress her grandma got her for Easter. I am shocked and I rush into her room. But by then she is laying on the crib. I am scared and I pick her up and hold her close. I am mad at someone for doing that to my daughter. So I turn around and I am trying to punch/beat up someone but there is noone. I am also punching close to the ground level as if this "thing" is pretty short. Still I am punching with full force at what seems to be nothing. I am VERY, VERY angry!!!

Then I look up and I see a huge painting on the wall next to her crib. Now the lighting in the room is bright. The painting sort of spans across the center part of the wall. Initially, it looks like a cheerful painting. The background color is bright blue. All the colors are bright. There are weird drawn figures, like respresenting humans. It looks like they are walking in procession. I see one "human" swaddled in white and being carried flat by few others.

In my dream, I am trying to understand what it is and I look to the bottom right side of the painting and it says in capital letters "PAIN". I seem to remember it saying "PAIN. CANCER" but I am not sure. I know for sure it said "PAIN". That shocks me and I suddenly realize that the painting is that of a funeral procession and the group is carrying a dead person. I don't know if I start punching into thin air again as if I am punching someone who did this, but I woke up shaken and my arms were jerking like I was trying to punch in real life.

For past couple of days, she has been sleeping restless and waking up often (consecutively, so are we). That is pretty normal for babies at this age. I had a weird sensation last evening... very uncomfortable feeling in general. I filled up some salt water in a bowl and placed it under her crib last evening, to negate any negative energy. I don't do this at all but I dont know why I felt like I need to place some salt water under her crib.

Needless to say, I am very worried because the dream involved my daughter. To see her suspended like that and that freaky painting has me very worried!!!! The could see the details in the painting, it felt so real.
I thought about what the the nightmare could mean. I feel like me punch in thin air was almost like the mother bear in my coming out. I didnt like that this "something" was messing with my daughter. I also think that cancer word might have been from reading about Heartsong posting about her cousin. But the rest is just so weird. I can't connect it to anything!

My daughter has been sleeping in her nursery for months but why did I suddenly feel uncomfortable about her room? Did that uncomfortable feeling just play games in my mind leading to such a detailed and almost real dream? What can I do so I know my daughter is safe? Should I be worried?

[Seraphin]

That nightmare sounds eerie! There can be many causes to weird nightmares, one of them is our thought patterns during the day. But I believe that our way of thinking is something we can control -- and change. Just like changing our clothes. I compared our thoughts to our clothing, as are spoken words and actions. But they are a unique and kinda odd sort of clothing.

We wear clothes so we can go to the places, people or events we choose to go. If we don't have a specific place to go, the clothes have nothing to say. But not in the clothing of thoughts and words. With them, if you don't take them somewhere, they will take you somewhere else.

So we better replace negative thoughts with positive ones -- just like you change your lousy and dirty clothes for great and new ones.

Well I'm not saying that you should ignore the nightmares. You can determine the form the message is taking to get to you. The key is to be still in your mind and heart.

I know there's a lot of fear about nightmares but this is not "Dark Territory" if you take the light with you. That's your heart and soul connection to your Highest Ideal. Be more attentive to the power of that Divine light in you as it's always in you to nourish and protect you. Remember to check your baggage before you leave. Above all -- discernment.

So before you sleep tonight, go to your baby's room, meditate, ground and pray, think about the words, think about making your day better. While you're in meditation, tell your thoughts, "I'm not interested in having you around," then slam the door in its face. Eventually, the thought will get your message and realize not to bother even trying. Cuddle up in bed with some good spiritual reading.

Also, aside from salt, it's good to put three bay leaves too in the cradle or bed under the mattress and fasten red ribbons -– the number of the ribbons should be odd. You may also put an old key or small bell under the mattress. Or draw a circle by a white chalk on the floor.

You could also make a mandala or a talisman such as God's eye or tsikuri; this reminds us how our Deities and Guides watch over us and our family and cares about us.

[ness]

Thank you, Seraphin. It was very eerie and I was very distrubed for most part of the day about the things I saw.
Usually, I am pretty positive, happy through the day. And I have been very much immersed in work lately, during the day. So, I am not sure what sort of negative thoughts over took me. Even though initially I was very scared, I eventually understood that I can control this and I can be strong to fight this fear of mine.
Last evening, I held my daughter as she slept and prayed to the divine spirit to protect my daughter. She woke up at around 11 pm and was very restless. I went back in, held her and said "You need to leave. And you are not welcome here". I felt pretty confident. She slept better after that. Still little restless but not full on cry.
I know someone who can make a talisman for us. I am going to get one for my daughter.

[Holdasown]

This may sound like a stupid question but did someone on your mom's side of the family die of cancer? Could they just be trying to say they are near? Sometimes we get scared by spirits even if they are family. Not saying you shouldn't take steps to keep out the negative but could someone just be trying to tell you they are there. A cup of apple cider vinegar will keep negativity away too. Change it every full moon.

[ness]

This may sound like a stupid question but did someone on your mom's side of the family die of cancer? Could they just be trying to say they are near? Sometimes we get scared by spirits even it they are family. Not saying you shouldn't take steps to keep out the negative but could someone just be trying to tell you they are there. A cup of apple cider vinegar will keep negativity away too. Change it every full moon.

I really didnt think of it in that angle. I cant recollect anyone who from close families that died of cancer. Noone close to me, at least. In my dream, my daughter was not in distress. I wouldnt have reacted with fear if it didnt involve my daughter. That is what ticked me off.

[Seraphin]

It might also be a spirit wanting your attention. Characterized by the vividness you describe in your dream of what had occurred, I believe this cant be dismissed as ramblings of the too imaginative mind; they are too powerful, too fearful and disturbing to just forget.

I believe that while we sleep, our etheric bodies leave our physical bodies and to some several higher planes to replenish their energy. In this disembodied state, the etheric or astral body is free to experiences some encounters that are usually off-limits to beings and entities of this world. This includes the possibility of meeting other deceased persons -- particularly the spirits of love ones or close friends.

It's possible that your nightmare comes under this category, ness. Since you woke up feeling uncomfortable and restless and your daughter is experiencing the same things then perhaps the entity needs something from you or from your family. You said, you saw a funeral in the painting, maybe the spirit wants some memorial prayers or it wants someone to attended its grave, or wants its anniversary of its passing be observed. It may be coming to you, to ask you to rectify some things, to ensure that its spirit given the assistance it needs to find rest.

By the way, if you want, I can give you instructions how to make God's eye.

[ness]

I think you both might be right.
I can still vividly remember that painting. Initially I thought that the pain was directed toward my daughter, like a threat, which is why I freaked out. Now I think about it, it might be just someone is trying to send a message?
So, last evening, I was thinking about who it could be. And suddenly I remembered that my father's brother recently died of cancer. I was not in touch or very close to my uncle at all, so I didn't think of him right away. He was an alcoholic while he lived and caused his family lot of pain and trouble. My 3 cousins had such rough life because of him. Since I remembered about him, I called my family and checked if they are doing his last rites properly. He was cremated. Sounded like all the rituals are being done by the procedure. So, not sure. It might not be him.

Seraphin, yes, I want to know how to make God's eye

[Seraphin]

Hiya ness!

Just one question, does this entity still doing something to make you aware of its presence?

[ness]

Not that I am aware of, Seraphin.

[Firebird]

We also need to remember dreams are usually different parts of our self trying to communicate to us in the unconscious. Since we are more attuned to symbols, that is they way they will come off in a dream. ...so lets look at the symbols. Your daughter...youth, the younger self. In the bed chamber...the place of physical rest and nourishment. Hovering...that place of disconnection, like astral travel. Easter dress...rebirth. The word Pain...actual pain emotional or physical. Death...endings, things that are no longer useful. Picture of death, a moment out of time remembered...also endings. Swinging at something yet having little effect...a fight or struggle where you are you are not making an impact.
Are you recently going through an ending where your child self was not being nurtured?, are you disconnected with your child self or having trouble finding her after some turmoil of some kind. perhaps you are unable to face something that should be ended and are not meeting with the desired effects... all your efforts are not making an impact. You could be experiencing a period of rebirth due to the ending which may have been painful, or some one has caused you actual pain.
I dunno...just some thoughts.
Very few of us can predict the future through dreaming, Try not to worry, I'm sure she will be ok.
Many blessings, Firebird

[ness]

Hi Firebirdflys - Your ideas on this are very thought-provoking!
I cant think of anything on the surface level that is bothering my childhood self or a phase of rebirth. I think my phase of rebirth happened in 2012... it was a very strong and a very intense time and I was riding through lot of emotions, contradictions. And by end of that year, I sort of found myself back again.
I am going to think more about it.

Thank you, I think you have opened few doors for me to explore just kidding...

I don't feel that sort of uncomfortable feeling in her nursery anymore.

[Seraphin]

Not that I am aware of, Seraphin.

Alright, perhaps this protective mandala or talisman might help you. This was fairly easy to make. Also, if you can, try to go in a meditative state during the act of weaving, especially when reflecting upon the symbolism of the colours of the yarn that you are using.

GOD'S EYE OR TSIKURI

You will need:
-yarn (red, blue, yellow, green)
-two branches or sticks
-feather
-stones (for protection, life or nurturing)

Then check out this website and follow the steps: How to Make God's Eye.


Start with green yarn.


Then from green to yellow.


From yellow to blue to red.


Tie the feathers with string. You can decorate it if you want.



Make a tassel from the remaining piece of string and
add protective stones (In our God's eye, my fiancee add a bloodstone and a jasper bead.)

Sometimes too, before I went to bed, I addressed my spirit community (spirit beings with whom, for various reasons, I am sharing a path, they can be positive and negative entities) and said something like, "You guys, I really need to get better sleep. When you disturb me, giving me nightmares and others distractions, it's really hard on my body and I feel sick during the day. Don't wake me up at night unless it's really important, and in return I'll make time on a regular basis to just sit and listen for whatever you want to show me."

That's all I needed to do. I'm rarely disturbed by the spirit beings in my home, even though there are sometimes a good number of them hanging around.

[Firebird]

cool Gods eyes.
Once upon a time...back before computer chat and still owning a dial telephone, A very nervous and happily anticipatory new Priestess lead her first circle, ...it was Lughnasadh. All crafted the eye of the God "Llew" for protection.
I still have it and I still get nervous.
I wonder about worry and the human condition. Here ness was beside herself, and rightly so...I mean nightmares are very hard to shake especially when they are involving such things as death. Do you think anyone would be able to go about their day and just brush that one under the rug? I think ever the strongest person would be worried. So why does worry need to be a part of our make up? Well not only with dreams, but especially with them because they can be so real they seep in to your waking time and then disrupts it.
sorry to hi-jack your thread...but am I the only one who wonders about weird stuff like this?
BB, Firebird

[ness]

Thank you, Seraphin! I will try to get the materials needed and make one. Not sure how soon I can get to it, but I will definitely try.

Sometimes too, before I went to bed, I addressed my spirit community (spirit beings with whom, for various reasons, I am sharing a path, they can be positive and negative entities) and said something like, "You guys, I really need to get better sleep. When you disturb me, giving me nightmares and others distractions, it's really hard on my body and I feel sick during the day. Don't wake me up at night unless it's really important, and in return I'll make time on a regular basis to just sit and listen for whatever you want to show me."

That's all I needed to do. I'm rarely disturbed by the spirit beings in my home, even though there are sometimes a good number of them hanging around.

The problem is, I didnt think I have the ability to communicate with spirits. I have never had such an experience, I cant see spirits, I cant feel them and such. So, usually I just brush off my dreams and dont think much of it. Now I am beginning to wonder if I am being sensitive to these communications. I am just double guessing and being cynical about my dreams, in general.

For instance, on saturday night, I dreamt that some old lady told me that she wants me to make her some banana pancakes! She was sort of telling me that she wants to know if I can make one. I woke up and asked my husband if he wanted some banana pancakes and he said no. So, I didn't make it.
Old lady maybe because I was watching a movie that evening about an old lady. I tried to make banana pancakes for my daughter few weeks ago but I didnt like it, so I trashed it. But a part of me thinks someone wanted banana pancakes and I probably should make some? WEIRD!! Should I consider it as some sort of communication from the other side of the veil? I am so confused where I stand in terms of my ability.

[ness]

I wonder about worry and the human condition. Here ness was beside herself, and rightly so...I mean nightmares are very hard to shake especially when they are involving such things as death. Do you think anyone would be able to go about their day and just brush that one under the rug? I think ever the strongest person would be worried. So why does worry need to be a part of our make up? Well not only with dreams, but especially with them because they can be so real they seep in to your waking time and then disrupts it.
sorry to hi-jack your thread...but am I the only one who wonders about weird stuff like this?
BB, Firebird

You are not hi-jacking and I am very happy you are bringing up this discussion

While I am all for positivity, I believe negativity isnt all that bad either. Why is it ok to be elated, but not ok to be scared? Generally, I feel lot of people dont want to do anything with these negative feelings. But I think I sort of welcome both, as long as there is a balance.

I think that emotions like fear and worry teach us some valuable lessons, if we dont brush it under the rug. Fear and worry teaches us that we are vulnerable and we are vincible. At each stage in my life, I can clearly pin point me vulnerable parts. Its important to know our vulnerable sides, dont you think? We can get a clear picture about our priorities if we can understand our worries. Does one worry over losing money? Does one worry over loved one? Does one worry over being unnoticed? Does one worry about not being accepted? And so on... and to what extent does it affect our life? Can we detach ourselves from such dependencies? Can we truly let go? For instance, If I catch myself worrying over money, I try to assess and regroup myself.