My familiar and I
Posted: Sat Nov 16, 2013 6:37 pm
For a very long time I have resisted establishing a connection with a familiar. I'm not sure there is reasoning behind it I just know it was natural for me to work alone. One night, about two weeks ago, in a state of distress, I made a connection with my dog as a familiar.
Since, some unexpected things have occurred.
A day or so after my dog was handled and her throat/neck was used to keep her from biting. Hours later I felt an odd soreness in my own throat. I thought nothing of it. Then, the next day, my whole throat ached. It was so strange and the aching lasted for about two days. I understood the parallel between what happened to my dog and me.
Then, yesterday, she was laying next to me and she started scratching at her face and right eye. She has allergies so this is normal for her, but she was doing it faster than usual.
About an hour later my right eye got extremely agitated and bloodshot. In an effort to cleanse my eye it swelled badly.
I want to know if I can break off this connection with her or if there is some way to dull it. It isn't that I'm afraid of what's occurring to me but what could she be experiencing because of me. I'm not in a positive state right now and haven't been for about four months. I don't want her to experience my negativity in a metaphysical way.
Any insight would be wonderful.
~Shea
Since, some unexpected things have occurred.
A day or so after my dog was handled and her throat/neck was used to keep her from biting. Hours later I felt an odd soreness in my own throat. I thought nothing of it. Then, the next day, my whole throat ached. It was so strange and the aching lasted for about two days. I understood the parallel between what happened to my dog and me.
Then, yesterday, she was laying next to me and she started scratching at her face and right eye. She has allergies so this is normal for her, but she was doing it faster than usual.
About an hour later my right eye got extremely agitated and bloodshot. In an effort to cleanse my eye it swelled badly.
I want to know if I can break off this connection with her or if there is some way to dull it. It isn't that I'm afraid of what's occurring to me but what could she be experiencing because of me. I'm not in a positive state right now and haven't been for about four months. I don't want her to experience my negativity in a metaphysical way.
Any insight would be wonderful.
~Shea