I did something 15 years ago.

[Chapter Four]

Greetings everyone!
I'm new here , Just got my account activated!
I believe in Wicca , I live by Wicca.

I did something 15 years ago (give or take).
I'm 28 years old , What I did 15 years ago still haunts me , I can't stop thinking about it.

I was young kid , about 13 years old. Curious of the unknown , a true weirdo.
Didn't realise what I was doing back than - I took two empty cups (simple coffee cups) and put them on two sides of a wood board ( like a small 2 by 4 board ) , so 1 cup on it's left edge and 1 cup on it's right edge.
I took paper (blank , without anything written on it) and tear it apart piece by piece and threw inside each cup.
While I was doing it , I remember saying some things like "i summon you bla bla bla" (probably saw it in a movie, I had a wild imagination)
Afterwards I took matches and light 'em up , threw 1 burning match in each cup.

and than it happen , I will never forget it.
from the left cup , rise 2 feet of flaming tower.
2 feet of flames that came from my small coffee cup which was filled with few pieces of paper and burned with a match. I will never forget it.

I screamed and cried for my father to come but he was taking a shower so I ran to the kitchen took bottle of water and when I came back to my room there was no more flames , just burning pieces of paper inside a coffee cup.

It really haunts me till this day , I can't stop thinking about it, If anyone have ANY idea what it could be , I'm begging you - PLEASE contact me and share me with whatever you know.

Thank you for your time , Hope you guys having a great day!

[SnowCat]

You may have been contacted and disciplined by the Element of Fire.

[SpiritTalker]

As a pubescent teen it's possible that your own awakening biological energy & drama provided the power which would indeed be the Fire element. It showed you in a hot instant that magical energy is real & to be respected. Accept the lesson. Thank the Powers for looking out for you. Also, you should now know to keep a jug of water near by whenever you do anything with flame. 2 lessons

Something you could do to right the situation is to gently re-imagine the events in meditation & properly close down & ground the energy. When the memory builds up pull the energy into your gut and ground it. Stomp it down. Be done with it.

[Firebird]

Whew!...lucky you didn't burn the house down
Did anything come of your little incantation? Like were you trying to be rid of something?
and so the one on the right did not flair up?
BB, FF

[Chapter Four]

Hi everyone , thank you so much for the fast respond , I appreciate that!
Sorry was working lots lately.
I apologise for my broken grammar , English is not my first language , neither second.

You may have been contacted and disciplined by the Element of Fire.

Thank you for your comment , Only thinking about it gives me goosebumps.

As a pubescent teen it's possible that your own awakening biological energy & drama provided the power which would indeed be the Fire element. It showed you in a hot instant that magical energy is real & to be respected. Accept the lesson. Thank the Powers for looking out for you. Also, you should now know to keep a jug of water near by whenever you do anything with flame. 2 lessons

Something you could do to right the situation is to gently re-imagine the events in meditation & properly close down & ground the energy. When the memory builds up pull the energy into your gut and ground it. Stomp it down. Be done with it.

Thank you for your comment , appreciate that!
Since that incident lot's of weird things start happening in my life , thinking about it..
Never really shared it with anyone because well you know..
But that incident 15 years ago was definitely the most insane thing ever happen to me , for long time I thought I was imagining it and my mind just played games with me , but I know what I saw.
I'm trying to meditate here and there but can't force myself to complete my meditation , after 5 minutes of meditation my mind is all over the place , I'm working on it tho , hopefully one day i'll achieve full meditation session.
It's scary to think about what this life has to offer , what kind of forces there are in our world just waiting to be discovered through our own mind, sometimes we forget there is so much more beside our 8:00-16:00 job and paying our bills.
But on the other hand - thinking about it , there is nothing scary about "supernatural" things , imagine going through the jungle and a lion jumps on you and kills you , is the lion good or bad? neither. just part of the nature.
Same goes to Wicca and everything around it , Fire element is not scary - it's just part of the nature.

Whew!...lucky you didn't burn the house down
Did anything come of your little incantation? Like were you trying to be rid of something?
and so the one on the right did not flair up?
BB, FF

Uhm , No.
I didn't try to get rid of something at all , just decided to summon anything that can be summoned - watched too many movies I guess.
Only the one the left flair up , the right cup didn't.
I don't know if it has anything to do with it but after that I started to notice anywhere I go there was always a fly around me just buzzing around , for YEARS.
Even when I moved to Canada when I was 22 , I still had flies around me at almost any given time. (And I don't smell bad :p)

Forgot to add - Also my wife says everytime I touch her she feels better , if she has stomach ache and I put my hands on her stomach she feels better , if her head hurts and I put my hands on her head , she feels better.
Once when she was asleep I decided to try something - Put my hands on her leg and focused on my energy , her leg started to kinda jump and shake a bit , I freaked out and never tried that again - she doesn't know about it and on the next morning she never mention anything.

[SpiritTalker]

..."But that incident 15 years ago was definitely the most insane thing ever happen to me"...

Really? Then that's why it stands out. There's nothing about it that's worrisome after this long.

Your method of forced quiet meditation apparently isn't working for you so why not try some "active" methods instead. Walking is good for relaxing the mind. 10-minute a day journaling is another idea: set a timer & start writing. You stop when the bell rings even if you're in the middle of a word. It teaches your mind to focus on what you're doing. Obviously it's time to explore new ideas.