Need help, I'm a newbie

[bluejay_1919]

So I'm not too new to this forum...most will see my posts about my kids and their special gifts or my experiences with the spirit world & other paranormal happenings. I would not call myself a Wiccan or even a witch...yet.

I first joined here because my little girl has a interest in witchcraft and worshipping nature and many gods & goddesses. Mind you, she is eight. I admire her for knowing exactly what she wants to believe. Now that I've dived off into this world of witchery, I'm becoming more comfortable with the fact that I too, believe I have witchy abilities. When I was a small child I was always casting spells, making potions and I felt deep down that I was once a witch, in another time, on another land. I felt out of place in body because of this. My room was decorated with angels, mythical creatures, dragons, flowers and herbs I would hang upside down to dry and candles. I believe I'm a witch at heart.

So now I enjoy reading posts on here not only for my daughter but for me. I enjoy the posts about history and nature and posts about easy, small rituals I can use in nature or with the moon.

However, there is something strange going on, and I hope someone can help enlighten me, because I'm unsure what to think.

My husband and I recently binge watched The Vikings. On there the main character has a connection with Odin. They have a few beautiful shots of Odin with his two ravens and hat...the visuals when he has a vision of Odin give me the chills,in a good way.

Now before this, I didn't know anything about Odin or much about Norse mythology or what have you. But I do have a strong connection with birds of all kinds. My husband calls me a bird whisperer.

My experiences from here on are confusing to me because I'm not sure if it's happening since I watched this amazing show. So please help or drop some knowledge on me!

I have seen the name or word "Odin" everywhere lately. I mean, in books, in movies, on commercials. Out and about I will see the word "Odin".

I've had dreams about him. Just he and I talking or I just quietly being in his presence...along with his two ravens and wolves.

The latest experience... I'm in bed, and I fall asleep finally to have a quick dream about Odin, again. He was talking to me. I don't remember what he said, which is very discouraging but I feel like it was in a different language. However, I understood it in my dream, but not when I woke up. I quickly woke up and when I opened my eyes, there he was....he had only one eye. His hat covered the missing eye, but his other eye was so blue...it glowed in the darkness of my room. I could see his cape as he turned away and disappeared. I really felt like I could touch him.

Now if any of you guys have read other posts of mine, you will see I have Hypnagogia. This does cause me to have vivid, hallucinations. So I am willing to brush that experience off to Hypnagogia, BUT...even if it was an hallucination...could it still be an important vision /hallucination?? I mean, I've read that people like Beethoven, Aristotle and Edgar Allen Poe, & Thomas Edison actually encouraged Hypnagogia because it helped their creativity.

I guess what I'm saying is that in feeling like I actually saw the presence of Odin, I do have the ability to see spirits and they come in any way they want to. If I was hallucinating, could he have come to me that way?

I'm really lost here. Why would I be seeing this Odin everywhere, like I have?? I'm not sure what to do or what to think. I've seen posts of deities and whatnot, but to be honest, I'm so new to this kind of experience ...I'm clueless as to these signs and their meaning.

I will be grateful to any advice or history lessons or any input!! Thanks so much for reading my forever long post!:lol:

[blue_moon]

Hey Bluejay -- what I've learned becoming who I am is that you should trust yourself!
I remember, when my daughter was little, I emotionally felt really bad. I felt lost - had a really bad relationship with my mother, it broke my heart. It got better living up in nature where we moved to! And I learned to listen to myself again.

What I'm trying to say hypnagogia or not -- Halluzinationen or not -- you saw and you felt and before your dream (!!) And vision you did feel a strong interest in Odin.

So why not trust in yourself I'd say read about odin and the norse mythology.

(As a child I was a "witch making potions" out in the garden a lot. As specially during winter time when the water was frozen and the herbs and roots... )

Trust in yourself and your gift as you trust in your daughter <3

[bluejay_1919]

Hey Bluejay -- what I've learned becoming who I am is that you should trust yourself!
I remember, when my daughter was little, I emotionally felt really bad. I felt lost - had a really bad relationship with my mother, it broke my heart. It got better living up in nature where we moved to! And I learned to listen to myself again.

What I'm trying to say hypnagogia or not -- Halluzinationen or not -- you saw and you felt and before your dream (!!) And vision you did feel a strong interest in Odin.

So why not trust in yourself I'd say read about odin and the norse mythology.

(As a child I was a "witch making potions" out in the garden a lot. As specially during winter time when the water was frozen and the herbs and roots... )

Trust in yourself and your gift as you trust in your daughter <3

That's lovely advice really through this whole experience with my daughter, she is helping me discover what I always knew I was. There are many things I'm comfortable in, and exploring this witchy side of me is exciting yet, comfortable like I've always been one.

I too, have suffered from a bad relationship with my mom. She did many horrible things and broke my heart. In the end, I'm stronger for it and I'm a better mommy. Now, when I could easily hold a grudge ( which I can't say I've completely forgive or forgotten ), we've moved my elderly mother in with us out of a nursing home. With my Daddy passed on, I guess I don't want to abandon her, like she did me, when was a teen. I don't know what you've been through, but I sense you too, are a strong woman.

I do feel like I should look more into Odin. I just don't want to open any doors that shouldn't be open. If that makes sense- I've never had a deity or god/ goddess make their presence known to me before. I'm just scratching my head as to why now? Of course, I keep thinking it's just cause I watched three seasons of this show, hahaha. But still, the lingering feeling I have after these dreams and vision, kind of haunt me in a non scary manner.

[blue_moon]

I never watched vikings (always miss it and only see the Commercial) - but I've watched Thor (Anthony hopkins is an impressive Odin I think) - but he never showed up in my dream so don't blame TV.

I don't have much of a connection to a deity. But I feel connected to the wind, the moon and the woods.

I also felt abandoned as a teen.. but with me it started earlier. ( My mom is a caring person!! But I actually pushed her away... I sorted things out together with my therapist)

Yes stuff like this makes you stronger! See how strong it made you! You're taking care of you mother now that she is alone and needs someone.

[blue_moon]

Hey I had to google because I wasn't sure. The nibelungenlied which is part of norse mythology plays here in the area I live. Siegfried killed the dragon and lost his gold near worms.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sigurd

Had to share with you

[bluejay_1919]

Hey I had to google because I wasn't sure. The nibelungenlied which is part of norse mythology plays here in the area I live. Siegfried killed the dragon and lost his gold near worms.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sigurd

Had to share with you

Wow, that's really interesting! These Norse men had such rich stories. Now I know who Aslaug is talking about when she said her dad was a dragon slayer ( on the show) and her mom was a bad a** shield maiden.

[blue_moon]

Brunhilde and Siegfried

[Lord_of_Nightmares]

HI, Bluejay. I have worked a little with Odin and he is a very fatherly god of knowledge.

Now, I have been reading the comments and I think you should introduce yourself to Odin, at least. My personal opinion, is that he is making himself known to you. That you should definitely talk to him.

The biggest reason why I point this out, is you say you have hallucinations with illness before but you question this because you have also seen Odin pop up quite a number of times with out having a vision, right before the subsequent vision. If it is making you question and double guess yourself, when other experiences have not, then it is worth pursuing, in my opinion. Hope that helps.

[bluejay_1919]

HI, Bluejay. I have worked a little with Odin and he is a very fatherly god of knowledge.

Now, I have been reading the comments and I think you should introduce yourself to Odin, at least. My personal opinion, is that he is making himself known to you. That you should definitely talk to him.

The biggest reason why I point this out, is you say you have hallucinations with illness before but you question this because you have also seen Odin pop up quite a number of times with out having a vision, right before the subsequent vision. If it is making you question and double guess yourself, when other experiences have not, then it is worth pursuing, in my opinion. Hope that helps.

Lady_Lilith, thanks for the reply! It's greatly appreciated and I was hoping someone with some knowledge of him or that has worked with him would comment. So my next question is, how do I introduce myself?? See, I've never even considered working with or having a deity make him or herself known to me. Never crossed my mind! So I'm a little excited and a little nervous as this is very new territory.

[Lord_of_Nightmares]

HI, Bluejay. I have worked a little with Odin and he is a very fatherly god of knowledge.

Now, I have been reading the comments and I think you should introduce yourself to Odin, at least. My personal opinion, is that he is making himself known to you. That you should definitely talk to him.

The biggest reason why I point this out, is you say you have hallucinations with illness before but you question this because you have also seen Odin pop up quite a number of times with out having a vision, right before the subsequent vision. If it is making you question and double guess yourself, when other experiences have not, then it is worth pursuing, in my opinion. Hope that helps.

Lady_Lilith, thanks for the reply! It's greatly appreciated and I was hoping someone with some knowledge of him or that has worked with him would comment. So my next question is, how do I introduce myself?? See, I've never even considered working with or having a deity make him or herself known to me. Never crossed my mind! So I'm a little excited and a little nervous as this is very new territory.

The basic method I was taught, was through getting an image of the deity, (This can be one you printed out from the internet, it does not have to be like something you made or bought.) lighting some incense, and maybe some candles, and just being like "HI, _____. My name is ______. It is a pleasure to meet you. Will you work with me?" etc. You can also introduce yourself during a trance state if you have another vision or during your dreams if you see him again.

You can see what goes from there, because after the introduction it's better to play it by ear. Odin is a generally a nice and forgiving god, who is very patient with new people. He can get angry, but it's hard to make him angry, in my own experience.

[bluejay_1919]

HI, Bluejay. I have worked a little with Odin and he is a very fatherly god of knowledge.

Now, I have been reading the comments and I think you should introduce yourself to Odin, at least. My personal opinion, is that he is making himself known to you. That you should definitely talk to him.

The biggest reason why I point this out, is you say you have hallucinations with illness before but you question this because you have also seen Odin pop up quite a number of times with out having a vision, right before the subsequent vision. If it is making you question and double guess yourself, when other experiences have not, then it is worth pursuing, in my opinion. Hope that helps.

Lady_Lilith, thanks for the reply! It's greatly appreciated and I was hoping someone with some knowledge of him or that has worked with him would comment. So my next question is, how do I introduce myself?? See, I've never even considered working with or having a deity make him or herself known to me. Never crossed my mind! So I'm a little excited and a little nervous as this is very new territory.

The basic method I was taught, was through getting an image of the deity, (This can be one you printed out from the internet, it does not have to be like something you made or bought.) lighting some incense, and maybe some candles, and just being like "HI, _____. My name is ______. It is a pleasure to meet you. Will you work with me?" etc. You can also introduce yourself during a trance state if you have another vision or during your dreams if you see him again.

You can see what goes from there, because after the introduction it's better to play it by ear. Odin is a generally a nice and forgiving god, who is very patient with new people. He can get angry, but it's hard to make him angry, in my own experience.

Maybe I'm asking silly questions and I apologize if I am:) after this introduction , what next? I guess what I'm asking is,what does one do with a God, haha. Is he making himself known to help me out somehow? How do others on this forum use their connection with God's and Goddesses?

[Lord_of_Nightmares]

Maybe I'm asking silly questions and I apologize if I am:) after this introduction , what next? I guess what I'm asking is,what does one do with a God, haha. Is he making himself known to help me out somehow? How do others on this forum use their connection with God's and Goddesses?

He should make himself known and you will probably get a lot of upg from it.

For myself, I form relationships with them and bond with them. They help me out during stages of my life and some I may use to draw energy from in a spell. It's a lot like having a best friend. I may do some stuff for them, they do some stuff for me, is pretty much what "bonding" is. (Fulfilling the needs of yourself and others.)

Odin, btw, I forgot to mention this, practices seidr which is Nordic magick practices. So, he'll probably help you in that area and with your spiritual journey. I don't know why i forgot to mention that, because it's real important to you. He may have come to you because of it.

[bluejay_1919]

Maybe I'm asking silly questions and I apologize if I am:) after this introduction , what next? I guess what I'm asking is,what does one do with a God, haha. Is he making himself known to help me out somehow? How do others on this forum use their connection with God's and Goddesses?

He should make himself known and you will probably get a lot of upg from it.

For myself, I form relationships with them and bond with them. They help me out during stages of my life and some I may use to draw energy from in a spell. It's a lot like having a best friend. I may do some stuff for them, they do some stuff for me, is pretty much what "bonding" is. (Fulfilling the needs of yourself and others.)

Odin, btw, I forgot to mention this, practices seidr which is Nordic magick practices. So, he'll probably help you in that area and with your spiritual journey. I don't know why i forgot to mention that, because it's real important to you. He may have come to you because of it.

Wow, thanks! I'm going to look more into the magic he practiced. Very interesting information!! I'm feeling quite excited and honored, hahaha, if that makes sense.

[Lord_of_Nightmares]

This is a good source. (They spell it Seidh, here. There are many different spellings.) They mention how it is a specialty of Odin.